Hi everyone,

I went to Houston this past week and the news I received was not great, but I always want everything to be good. The tumor on my pancreas had grown a cm and on my liver some tumors had shrunk, but some had grown. Of course, I was so disappointed. Unfortunately, this is the way this story is going to probably play out. Sometimes, I will have good news, then the next, not so good news. My doctor had to remind me that this cancer is not curable and I know, but the cancer and my personality do not go together. When you know you have an incurable cancer, it is so hard to be up and optimistic all of the time. The bad part is what it does to my family. They try to be "up" for me but I know that it is so hard for them when I receive news like this. It just seemed like this last visit to Houston brought me back to reality that this cancer is serious and I have absolutely no control. So, I have to rely on my faith in God and that He will take care of me and my family and we will all come out of this being stronger people.