Going back to 1st day

As you know I found out April 21 that I had cancer and what a shock it was to me. I had had my liver biopsy that Monday and when you have a biopsy you know something pretty serious is happening. So, my kids and husband were with me when I got my news. To see the tears in their eyes nearly killed me. I knew it was serious before we even heard the news. But my wonderful Dr. Bala explained everything so thoroughly that it really calmed them down. We knew we had so much info to get to know where the cancer originated. But deep down, I already knew. When I went out into the waiting room where everyone was waiting for me, it seemed like everyone was still in shock.

Emily Faggard, was in the building going to her dermatologist and asked if she could come up with us. I said yes, of course, you are part of my family. She took it real hard and told my team that evening.

Here comes the hardest part: I had to tell my parents that their daughter has cancer. Cancer is on both sides of my family and a lot of you know that my Mother had a colostomy in 1978. I learned from her years ago that you can't give up and your attitude can make or break you. My dad was working that night, and I wanted to tell them together, but my mom new I had a doctor's appt. She kept calling and I would ignore it. Finally, I took her call. It was the hardest thing I've ever done telling her that I had cancer. She took it so hard. She was upset and crying. The news was still new to me, but it killed me that she was so upset. Then I called my dad when I knew he was going to be home. I caught him in the drive way of his home. He took it better, but still telling my dad that I had cancer, nearly killed me. He was very encouraging and told me he had learned since he retired that "bad things happen to good people." That he knew men that were so close to God, but things still happened to them. I told him to go into the house and take care of Mother. I know it was hard for both of them, but I think since they have gone to the doctor with me and have seen me this weekend, that they feel much better.

Then, my son Travis was planning to move to California on May 6. I absolutely hate to be the cause of plans being changed. So, I told him your plans are not cancelled, just postponed. It will happen. I'm a big girl and can do this. My daughter, Jennifer lives in San Antonio and teaches, so if I need any one, she can be here.

I have felt very good today, so maybe the infusion for my calcium is kicking in.

I've had several people tell me that they cannot comment. Do any of you have any suggestions. I've told people to log in and they say they are, but if you have any suggestions, please let us know.

Nona Fox, thank you for the brisket, potato salad, beans and banana pudding. You outdid yourself!!!